why is it whenever you leave its all fine and dandy but when i do it then its a sin against god himself. like you fucking say "yeah it might be better if you join" then you dont fucking bother asking me or anyone else to join then you dont want me joining you and your new fucking bf because oyu want "alone time" like what the fuck is that? Why are you so secretive w this fucking guy man what the fuck. you usually try to force me to be friends w them and for some reason this ONE person its "different" and you just wanna keep them away like what the fuck man. i keep saying ill change and yet i do it all the time i do this bullshit over and over again and just make things worse i dont understand why i cant change i just want to be normal i just want to be fine i just want to be able to love without feeling being left behind i just wish i was normal i just want to be okay again i promise its not you i just cant control myself im sorry please dont leave me