Something that used to make me so so happy now just makes me.. sad. I cant listen to their music, see their faces, or even think about them. Like I’m mourning a loved one. But the funny thing is: i don’t know them. And they don’t know me. Ever since that video if been thinking. Thinking. And that hurts even more. That made me really see it. Im emotionally attached. But not in a cute way. In a way that makes me depressed thinking about them, not being able to listen to them anymore. To the extent i cant even look at him without noticing how tired and skinny he looks. How they could barely keep their eyes open, but still had a smile in their face for us, for me. Is it time to let go? But this is the exact thing that once kept me going, the thing my heart was beating for. The thing that was once my life. And the thing is, i don’t want to let go. I want to continue. But how can i when it hurts that much?