I’m really proud of my identity and my weirdness but sometimes I wish I was just normal. I wish I wasn’t autistic and didn’t feel so alien around all kinds of people just because of something out of my control and I wish I wasn’t queer, sometimes. Like what if I could just be normal? Just follow the norms and get by. Why did I have to be so different? And not only that the pope all around me(for example, my friends) are so openly against it too and every time they make a comment that’s mocking autistic people or gay people or trans people I feel so stupid. I wish I could say something and not be so scared of their judgement just because I don’t want to be alone again - I feel selfish. I hate feeling this way. Some part of me feels like if I was just neurotypical and cishet and I didn’t come out “wrong”, then it wouldn’t matter to me and I could finally not feel like a rat in a human skin suit. Im sorry if this comes out weird, I’m just so done with this. I want to be free for once.