i have this friend im really missing, around a month ago there was this big conflict because i found out him and another friend made a group chat about me and talked shit behind my back. I’ve been thinking of what he said to me and what i did, it snowballed since i said a joke and he didn’t take it the right way, but then i just stopped caring about the gc and what they said, i feel guilty of how i acted but i remember being so upset i made plans to kill myself, i didn’t want to do anything and. my mom got so angryk she usually threatens me whenever she sees me upset, “i’m gonna send you to therapy” then maybe it’ll help instead of you telling me it’s just a part of puberty, i don’t think wanting to kill myself is a usual thought I should have, and it’s frustrating because i live in a stable home but my parents don’t seem to be emotionally there for me, i get what i want material wise and i am generally “happy” but i feel like i can’t be upset since in my house i’m usually scolded