I cant tell anyone anything. I have very few friends and our relationships are very rocky, they have all their other better friends and friend groups, while im just that lone person relying on anyone who would pity me enough. Im no where near close enough to these people to tell them how I feel, how I truly wish I was gone, how much I know how little I matter to these people. I used to vent to those friends but I started to feel bad and we started drifting, and I think its my fault, so ive been trying to hold it in. How dare I burden these people with my problems. MY problems. Im truly just scum, a waste of air. I dont have anything anymore, if be happier gone. Everyone would be, then I wouldn't have to deal with this pain and people wouldnt have to deal with me. Im sorry.