Hello, I guess I am just confused. I am young and still have a lot of life to live but I just haven't felt why it is worth living? It has been about 6 years now since I started noticing weird patterns in myself but its been 2 years since my mental health crisis. It was full of ins and outs. Anxiety, SH, insomnia, disassociation, paranoia, dysmorphia, and isolation. I didn't think I would still be alive but who would've known- yay. But, now, I feel very guilty that I live a good life. I am very blessed, so I'm frustrated with how my brain still wishes it was suicidal. I am not depressed so I don't know why I suddenly thought this year I should start SH again. I confirmed that I was over reacting because my parents had said it was a phase and my friends either avoid such topics or tell me that this is normal. So, now, I guess I am just looking for advice on how everyone else sucked it up or maybe on why I would rather get worse than "better."