I should have never responded to him. I don't care if it was ten years ago. I shouldn't have fucking agreed to anything. Now, my life is ruined and I can't function as a normal person, all because of one pathetic manchild and his pregnancy fetish. He would pester me with it, day in and day out, all throughout my formative years. I WAS A CHILD. My childhood is fucking GONE because of this monster. Even then, calling him a 'monster' feels generous. He fucked me up so badly that I can't even touch my own stomach without having a panic attack, nobody can. Not my boyfriend, not doctors, not anybody. I feel like a diseased animal that needs to be put down. I feel like a freak. The worst part is that he will probably NEVER have justice served to him, because how the fuck do you explain what I went through to someone and not have them brush it off as stupid? I couldn't ever go to a detective or a cop about this, they would think I'm fucking insane. 10 years, down the fucking drain.