i should end my life because i fully believe I'm a danger to myself and others but I don't want to do that because I'm scared. But at the same time I want to do that because I know there's no hope for me or the future. I have no friends, my family doesn't love me and many people have told me that I'm a bad person or am egotistical. I just want to live life normally. I hate feeling responsible for everything. I'm young. I'm so selfish. I have more failures than success. I should end it but I don't know when and how. I don't know if I'm a crybaby or if it's an actual issue. I talk to my doctor and therapists about my feelings and problems but they seem very nonchalant. I don't want to hurt anyone, even if I hate humans. I hate having so much responsibilities thrown at me with no warning or instructions. I failed being human. I'm a failure.