I wanna cut my skin. I wanna take it off. It looks so weird. I hate the way it feels. I feel like my stomach is inside my mouth. I wanna throw up so bad. Everytime after I eat I have to remind myself "Dont puke,dont puke" and I never had/have ED. Sometimes I feel like even drinking will make me puke. I cant sleep as well. I wanna talk about it with my therapist but Im gonna sound like a whiny bi₺ch. I wanna scratch my skin until it bleeds until theres no skin underneath. I dont even want my bones. Burn them crush them melt them I dont care. I dont wanna exist but I have no reason to die. I just wanna disappear. I wish I wasnt born. Maybe I wouldnt be such a disappointment. I know its weird. I just wanna rip out my organs and tear them apart. I wanna sleep and never get out of bed. I dont wanna eat and I want some strawberries