I hate looking mediocre. I'm not pretty by any means, but I know I'm not ugly. I'm just average. Not pretty enough to say I'm pretty, but not ugly enough to say I'm ugly. Guys don't want me. Guys don't like me. They'd rather ask my friends out instead of me. I've never had any guy be interested in me that I wanted back. I've rarely had guys be into me at all. But the worst part is that I'm too lazy to do anything about my looks. Makeup and clothing and hair is so expensive, and there's so much work into learning what looks best on you that it's exhausting. I hate being the ugliest one in the room while being surrounded by gorgeous friends. I hate seeing my friends learn how to do their makeup and dress pretty and feeling like a lost child left behind. I hate being unhappy with how I look but feeling like I'm not allowed to say it.