I'm not pretty. I'm not funny. I'm not pleasant to be around or talk to or listen to. I'm not confident. I'm not talented. I'm not athletic. The only thing I had going for my life was my book smarts, but even that has gone to shit. I'm not smart anymore. It feels like I've only become more stupid as I get older. Book starts will never get me anywhere anyway. All they were good for was school. Outside of an educational setting, my mind is useless. I'm actually so stupid. I have no street smarts, no common sense, and it just feels like I'm behind everybody else. Whatever kind of intelligence I had academically, there's absolutely none of it in any other kind of intelligence, and I don't know why. How did it get to this point? What is so wrong with me that I'm this stupid? I say shit without thinking, I do things without realizing, and I only realize shit when it's too late. And then I kick myself about it because, to anybody else, it would've been obvious. But no. I'm stuck with me.