I feel ashamed at how I'm functioning as a person right now. I have an amazing boyfriend and his amazing friends life couldn't be better. I feel am ache inside my chest. I haven't been to a doctors or therapist, I don't want to self diagnose but it feels like depression. I feel weak, unnoticeable, distancing, and hopeless rn. I'm not a perfect person but I try to be perfect for him and I. We saw obsession and I hate horror now, and he was really sweet to me that night. Then next day he's making fun of me for it amd I didn't like it ND I kept telling him to stop. And then today was weird, he said I was a liar, the he called me a somebody to his friends "oh yeah I'm talking to somebody" which he could've said my name they know me, and then he said to me "unlike you whose hard to calm down." Wtf?! Idk if im being emotional but I haven't been having a god time lately. & "I'm doing nothing" before telling me he was busy on the game when I called him.??