I'm starting to realize that no matter who I date, no matter who I fall in and out of love without. I will always feel like I'm not enough or I'm too much. I will always feel like their love is a lie no matter what. It sucks because I can find the most amazing person in my life, and doubt everything they tell me. No matter how much I want to believe it, that they will love me for me. It just seems impossible. I don't really belong anywhere. I don't really have a set group of people I hang around. I'm not the ideal partner. It makes me question why I'm even still alive. It makes me think of suicide because I'm starting to feel like maybe I'd be better off that way. I don't want to be here anymore. I just want these thoughts to stop and they never will. No matter who I tell and no matter what I do it's always the same feelings the ends up crawling back into my skin. Creating this uncomfortable and restless state of mind. I'm literally not enough in my own eyes.