This is inappropriate, I am sorry for not trying to make it sound less inappropriate. I'm horny. Im so horny. I crave for random stupid shit. My lust is consuming me to the point it's slowly killing me. It's been only 2 days since I had a relapse, I'm already having stupid thoughts and they're draining me, I feel so guilty for falling into this addiction, I cant even blame anyone other than me for this, I found this myself, only i can get myself out of it. I am so tired of myself. I feel like a shitty terrible person. This drains me even more cuz im in a relation and I feel like a terrible partner Im disappointing Im suffering so deeply i can't even express it with some ik irl I got reminded of all my stupid terrible memories yesterday and it made me want to burst out crying but I could not Life feels so frustrating and I hate this point of my life even more because teenage mental health is not taken health seriously I js hope i dont feel like crying in my sleep again