I’m angry. I don’t know why or how to get rid of it. Everything feels familiar but wrong,I feel my skin so dirty and my teeth itch and feel like rot,I feel as if my organs are decomposing inside of me,I don’t know what to do.,I want help.I need it but I’m scared to sound crazy or pathetic,dramatic or maybe someone might think I’m faking it,I’m not.,I need help.,I yearn for it with such a disgusting ache that my bones hurt,and I want to cry,I need to cry but they won’t come out.,I want to talk to my mom,sister,anyone.,They don’t listen and when they do,they make me feel even crazier and dirty with their stares.,they always tell me to talk to god,I don’t believe in him and I never will.I remember those years I begged and begged for him to help but he didn’t listen,why would he listen now?,I feel as I can just pull my teeth and they’ll slide out my gums easily,I feel crazy,I am crazy.I know it.I’m bipolar with psychosis.I feel unheard. I imagine my organs and intestines decomposing