i cant fucking do this anymore this is tooo much i just need to die i had so many people kill themselves in my life i just cant do this anymore i had an emotional abuser that made me attempt to kill myself and killed herself when i got the courage to block her two no three of my friends fucking killed themsevles and quite literally evreryonr i know is suicidal and im so jealous and paranoid my friends never reply i feel like an outsider and a ghost i dont feel real i dont feel real i cant stop cutting myself and i started cutting myself in public in obvious spaces just so my friends could noticed something was wrong and that so they would finally text me and finally ask me if i need help because im just so lonley and i dont have anything to live for oh god