i feel like i don't matter in my own relationship. i feel like everytime i only matetr when he's phsyically sitting there with me because he has to. other times it's ignoring me or ghosting my texts or lying about wanting to hangout. i asked hours ago if he wanted to hang out and he said he did and i asked when and how and hours later there is still no answer no reponse now he is just getting mad at me for being upset that there is no response because it feels like he doens't care but i am irrational and crazy for feeling this way.