hey so you know that feeling when you want to cry but no tears are coming out? That's me right now. My year has been absolute rat shit. I'm not even kidding. So first, my grandma has cancer and might die soon, my dad has moved out and is not allowed to contact me. My mother is very depressed and crying all the time, I'm starting to relapse in suicide ideation and cutting, and I'mm just getting to the point to where i'm starting to think that if I died , no one would care.