I wish my absensce haunted someone. I wish that when I'm not around, that people will miss me, feel a hole in their chest. I wish that people would think about me when I'm not around, think "oh I wonder what she's doing" "I wonder what she's feeling". But i feel like no one thinks of me like that at all. Don't get me wrong my friends are nice, I love them individually but not together as a group. Like today i was sitting there while two of them were talking all alone. I kept randomly dissapearing to the bathroom and didn't say goodbye when it was classtime, and they didn't say a word. Did they even fucking notice? I feel so damn alone even when i am surrounded by people. I feel like my mind went out of my head, and i could really use a good friend to help me find it. I always wonder about others. I wonder about them and about what they are wondering about, if they are thinking about what i'm thinking about and so on. But instead i sit alone in my room wondering if my life is worth it.