Hello, I’m in my early twenties and I’m at university. I’d like to write here about the hell that is my life; I don’t even know how I’m still alive, when I’m in mental pain every day and find myself in unbearable suffering. The problem, at the moment, is at university, but I’ve always had a very complicated life. No, I’ve never had financial problems and I come from a well-off family, but that doesn’t mean I’m happy. The problem now is at uni – there are these brilliant people who are top of their class and recognised by the lecturers, whereas I’ve got none of that. I feel envious, because I just want to be like them. As I’m not like them, I’m always excluded from conversations in a very natural way, which bothers me a lot. I have a brilliant friend, but I notice he talks much more to others like him than to me. Then there’s a teacher who’s a bit of a bitch and humiliates me in front of them. It’s an emotional pain that’s lasted for years, and I refuse to accept that I’m not top of the class. I hate my life; I wish I didn’t have to