I want to let it out. If there’s something that resides in the empty lifeless eyes of mine, I want to let it out. Flowing into the ocean. The stream fairest it feels like a dream. I mean my situation isn’t bad as other people, after all I have a great family & okay grades, “Stop trying to drop everything you lazy bum!” But I can’t. “You can do better than that, you’re just lazy.” I’m not lazy, am I? Maybe I am, maybe that’s the reason why I’m lonely, no friends. “But you don’t need friends!” Right. But walking into school, looking around surrounded by nobody but longing. Would I ever seize to belong again. “You had friends before… what’s your problem?” I DONT KNOW. I don’t know. I don’t know why I’m dumb, I don’t know why I’m incompetent, pathetic. I don’t know why I cry for the dumbest stuff, for that feeling of warmth that I once had. I could just talk to my old friends, but I refuse to see them. I’m just dramatic for all I know. I just wish I could flow in the ocean like the waves.