I still can't believe it's over. I sit here, I sob my eyes out, I breathe and then I'm okay again, and then I just start crying, over and over and over. I don't think I can go on, I'm sorry to everyone I've ever met. I'm just so scared. I'm so alone. I'm always going to be alone. I just want to get it over with. I miss him so much, I don't think I'll ever stop missing him. He was the first person who understood me, the first person who didn't hurt me like they did. He was everything I ever wanted, but it's over because of me. I'm sorry, I don't want to be here. I just want to go to bed, I want to go home. I want my mama or papa. I want to be carried back inside. I just want to hear him soothe me to bed one more time, it was so bad but I loved him so much.