I've been depressed for almost 6 years. That's almost half my age. I am still VERY young. I don't know what else to do in my life. I've been sa'd. I've cut myself until I fainted. I even cut myself in public. You know... Sometimes... I just wish I could see my limp, lifeless, ugly, disgusting, weird, boring self lying on the floor as my toxic, disgusting, idiotic blood pools from my body around the room with my hand holding a bloodied knife. Maybe not, maybe I wish I could see lifeless self hanging from a rope that is tied to the ceiling and put around my neck as the chair I knocked down stay there, probably not gonna be used ever again. Probably even seeing myself there on top of a high rooftop, wearing a yellow cardigan with such gentle braids, it's sad that those braids fell with me. Haha. It's really funny to imagine how useless and easily killable I am. Maybe I should commit suicide. ... Okay, I'll do it.