I don’t know if I could live anymore. Everything in my life is just turning into shit and my friends don’t care about me and they just don’t wanna do anything with me even though I just forgave them for everything that I did to them and I think that just everything is my fault for what I did and I just want them to know that I’m truly sorry but I think I just wanna actually die. That’s what I want a world where nobody would care about me even when I die because I know that they wouldn’t care as much as they did as I was living. I know they do care, but I just need a sign in my life where everything is gonna be all right where they were all my best friends do still love me and they do still wanna be my best friends. I want that to happen, but it’s just not happening right now and I just really need it in my life right now. I think I just wanna cry so badly. You’re just a how much ass suffered across me and just so many people and I am just having trouble eating because of this.