I seem to be struggling with forgiving my ex as a Christian. It’s hard to I watch him put on this “nice guy” act for everyone. Sometimes, I wonder if God is punishing me somehow. My ex gets the young-couple marriage and the opportunity to feel like the “perfect” masculine man, while I’m left trying to rebuild. I know God has blessed me in many ways, but it’s hard to recognize those blessings when I see him seemingly thriving. I don’t think he’s necessarily evil, but he presents himself as a good man while hiding how he treated me. He felt entitled to my body, became angry when I said no to sex, and controlled my eating habits under the guise of caring about my health. Seeing mutual friends regard him as an “alright guy” sometimes makes me question my own experiences and even feel guilty. What hurts most is watching him embrace the faith I once eagerly shared with him while seemingly using religion to mask his behavior. I struggle with the idea of forgiveness when it feels like Tamar