I will never feel, for anyone more than I do her, I will never not be alone, because I grasp on the small chance she will want to be with me again, I can't move on and I have given up on trying to, I know people say date new people and forget about your exs but I literally can't it's been over 2 years I still cry when I lay alone at night, I cry when I shower, I can't touch myself in any way without thinking about her, I can't see certain colours, or notice certain words, I can't see art that looks similar to what she would draw, or piercings, or certain makeup styles, or certain expressions or hear quirky humour, I can't watch any of the shows I use to watch, I can't play a lot of games anymore, I miss playing with her and talking for hours and sleeping together, the wounds have had so long to heal but they still feel like they bleed.