im so lonely... all my life been lonely... my family keep saying i not have any mental health stuff and health stuff but sometimes there blood in the toilet when i use it and no one care about daily tummy ache and no one care that im struggling and just say it a choice and im lazy and have easiest life in the world... and deny everything they do to me. my body feel like it not normal, look in mirror and see a ghost, and im not okay but no one believe me here... im so thin and weak but no one care and even if i pass away i know they will say it my fault... i struggle with food lot and i struggle with lot of things and i can't even cross street or go places alone and they say im just trying to have easy life even if i feel trapped because if stand too long, heart start to hurt but they said it in my head and im lying even when they saw me almost faint just because im trying to brush my hair and sit in room and mostly sit down and i want to live normal life but no one care about me