Idrk how to do this but i js need to type it out bc if i don't release it somehow, i'm probably going to go insane. I feel like i'm in a depressive state again (?), im most likely failing some subjects despite it only being the 1st sem of my 1st year in college + i have multiple absences + missing activities and quizzes + i dont rlly have the energy to eat nor leave my bed + im starting to feel insecure abt my art, which is the only thing i have tbh. Life has been vv exhausting recently and i just feel like a big disappointment to my parents who work hard for me to be able to go to school. I am so so disappointed in myself, bc i know i can do better w my academics, but i don't even have the energy to attend classes even though i want to. I feel so embarrassed knowing that im currently residing in a dorm close to my uni, and yet i have multiple absences compared to my classmates who live farther yet are present everyday. Idk what to do anymore i js feel so worthless i wanna kms so bad