im genuinely so tired every time i look at food all i can see is fat even just thinking about food makes me feel fat. I lt disgusts me so much its taken over my life all i can think about is how to eat as little as possible throughout the day without binging everything in sight. I feel like such a pig i wish i could eat without feeling like i need to peel my skin off afterwards im so fucking jealous of people who can eat carefree this mindset makes me think such horrible things ab others i dont feel like myself and i hate it so much its genuinely bleeding into every aspect of my life