I used to get panic attacks when I saw gore, then just grossed out, now I feel nothing. I just am left alone knowing justice will never be served since everyone is either too comfortable or too weak. I need to dig into them. I need to see THAT. I can't keep making the same mistake. I barely act like a person but if I can get that...please...I need it's...what's wrong with me?! Why do I want to do that so badly?!?! I was so aroused by the idea...I hated all of britains and japans actions and just wanted to tear off and expierment...wanted to feel the organs squishing between my gloved fingers. Wanted to hear them struggle while I choked them. That'll never happen. Why do I feel nothing thinking about that. They just ruin everything. Those scum ruin everything and they're okay with it. I need to tear it open and finally feel it, I need to see it, I want to help others, I want to crush it, I want to benefit the world, I want to get rid of the evil in it.