im so SICK. and DISGUSTED. and TIRED of people objectifying and idolizing me. i can list 12 people off the top of my head who have accused me of never understand what true pain means/assuming i dont get sad nearly as much as ANYONE else, because, word for word, i have a "perfect life". i hate that word. i hate the word perfect so much. "oh you're so perfect" "shut up, you cant be talking youre literally perfect" "i wish i was you, youre so perfect" oh my god. it makes me want to cry. i dont even know what to do anymore im so sick and tired i want to rip my heart out and show all the holes inside of it as proof im not perfect but twisted and sick and cursed and im so sick and tired of living this life