during my 9th grade year i was raped/groomed .. at first it seemed like i gave full consent .. i wanted this i would tell myself , i was okay with what was happening , he would try and kiss me and at first i told him i didnt want to but eventually i couldnt fight anymore , he would try and touch me and kiss me at the same time and i would resist, and he wouldnt stop .. eventually i spoke up and he just ignored me and told me i was being dramatic , eventually things started going way to fast and i spoke up but he would always say stuff like , "this is how i know you really like me" or "this is how i lock in with someone" , and when i wouldnt do it he would say "you must not like me" or "ill walk out and never talk to you again" , im a pretty ugly girl i guess , according to guys im around , i just wanted to be loved , i wish i could take back the things i did with him , i wish i could change what i did , and i watch a bunch of girls fall down the same rabbit hole everyday ..