i wish i could die because my parents are so overbearing and i know they would be sad but i can't really seem to care about them. i really only think about some of the people at school but i don't even know if they actually care about me. i wish all the pain i had could just go away and i wish i could just fade into death because if i ever attempt and it fails, then i'm gonna be in so much trouble. i wish i could cut but then my parents would get mad like last time and they're going to send me to the mental hospital. they say that they really care for me but it just feels like they are trying to mold me into something that they actually want to be proud of and not accepting my accomplishments that i currently have. i just wish that someone could understand.