im such a terrible person. i lose all of the people i love because i don’t hold onto them tight enough, ik i love them so much and that they’re the most important ppl on the earth to me, but i dont appreciate them enough. and now that one of them is gone, i regret everything. i regret that i didnt show my love for them more and i regret that i never got a chance to grieve and fully appreciate them. ik they would want me to be happy and not let it get me down, and it makes me even more regretful that im not doing the one thing they would want me to do.