I broke up with her 3 times. My ex, who we will just call N, me and her have known each other for 3-4 years. She isn’t close to any of her friends or family, only ever talking sweetly to me. I think she’s obsessed with me tbh, if I accidentally ignore her she spams me a ton - like today, I didn’t answer her for a hour bc I forgot to tell her I was gonna shower, then I come back to 150 som text messages asking if she said something wrong. It’s kinda overwhelming but at the same time, I love it. I know it’s not healthy, she is depressed, me being her only joy and whatever - that’s not good. I want her to be happy and healthy, but I’m so selfish and I kinda like to be her only person bc I’m an insecure loser man who sees her as perfect and very afraid she will find someone better. Plz don’t think I’m allowing her to do this tho, I’m trynna encourage her to see the better stuff of life and I broke up with her so that I could kinda distance myself from her, but idk what to do tbh