I want to die but I can't I don't feel like I put my best in yet why does God hate me so much all I did was be born well if God hates me then I hate him to I want to cry but I cant and when I do I cant stop crying stop comferting me with religion after I vent it's getting fucking old and isn't helping there's something seriously wrong with me why am I like this I feel sick I just want to be normal once in my fucking life so people would respect me and listin for once I feel like I don't deserve basic human rights because people don't treat me like one of there own kind I just want to sleep forever I'd rather sleep then stay awake its so peaceful I keep getting pushed aside I don't talk or I over share and I mess something up I'm such a fucking failure everyone just puts up with me I feel like shit why would god do this to me I fucking hate him so much I want to rip my skin of my bones and pull my eyes out of my sockets