Im so irritated all the time. Everyday it feels like im gonna cry from anger. I have a chronic illness that makes my life so miserable in the sense that everything is inconveniently painful. It’s not blaring pain, or debilitating by any means, it’s just inconvenient aching and throbbing everywhere, all the time. For 15 years I’ve been bottled up in my own pathetic misery, and I just can’t fucking take it no more. I just want to feel nothing for once. To be consciously aware that I don’t feel my joints throbbing under my skin every second of every day. I want to be free. Not dead, not anymore at least, just numb. I want to be numb from everything, mentally and physically. But that’s not possible. So I will remain. I will remain here in my misery because that’s what the universe gave me. I will finish my education in my misery. I will love in my misery, I will hate in it, I will cry and I will laugh in it, for that’s the only thing I have the power to do.