Im so tierd of pretending im okay around others even everything is fucked up. So mutch that i locked my self away from society. I have been doing it for years. Im tierd of hearing how succesful prople are saying again and again i should be this or that or do something else. I tried to be something else to be someone else it did not fucking work out. Good if it worked for you. It did not work for me. I cannot "chance". I fucking tried multiple times with help and whitout. It is better for people like me to stay fully away from people as mutch as possible. I will never become like people ask me to be. It is impossible.