I cant do this anymore. I want to kms but I also dont want to sin and go to hell. Especially as a Muslim (Muslim peers will understand better, especially with strict families). I am hypersexual, probably because of a past experience with my older sister and early p*rn exposure (9yo) Its not that i am just freaky, absolutely not. Its far worse. I get these attacks where I have feel turned on, want to watch porn etc. After doing it or only thinking about it, i feel this absolute disgust rushing through my veins. I feel like throwing up or end up hurting myself, mostly scratching my arms till they bleed or c*t myself. I cant focus in school because I cant control those thoughts. I imagine inappropriate thing about everyone, ANYONE. Its just disgusting. I feel like a fucking pedophile. If you know "house of puso", then its easier for you to get cuz puso is just me, only difference is that I am not a rape victim. Honestly, go watch it. Really touching.