Life passes in a blur for me. It's like everything that happened to me (good or bad) didn't happen to me, but to somebody else, until it finally hits me. It feels like my mind isn't really in the present, but it's not like I'm in my head either. When I think about my friends, I feel nothing. When they reassure me, etc I feel nothing. But when they abandon me, I do feel guilt and regret, amongst other things, for a few minutes, but that's it. My (ex) best friend once told me that she felt like I didn't love her. What she said was true. I didn't feel a thing, but I lied. There are times I'm genuinely happy talking to her but the majority is just nothing.