i'm going to lie to my "friends" basically my friends are quite terrible people (antisemitist etc), and they don't even care about me but i'm not dropping them because there's literally 15 people in my grade and i've had enough of being alone at school overmorrow there's a halloween party and at first i said i'm gonna go but then i realized there's gonna be nobody i actually like there and i don't even like parties so i've just been anxious over it so i'm gonna tell them i'm sick so i can't come and skip school tomorrow to increase believability and i kinda feel bad for lying but also if i said i just don't wanna come they'd probably dislike me even more and i'd probably lose them i just gotta hope i don't get caught and if you're the person who left a note on my last post about not liking my friends, the reason i don't want to drop them is i've already spent years alone at school feeling like a loser, desperate to have someone to hang out with and being hated for no reason