I feel im becoming extremely envious of others which im trying not to be but it feels so hard. I know I have my own wins which are still very good but it always feels like my own wins ALWAYS get one upped. I finally get a job outside of retail (a cleaning job) and friend is announcing they made a pilot for an animated show (a job id kill for). I got into a game and my friend soon did after and has constantly won better items and things. They have no job or school meaning they get to just play all day. My sister goes to a big college with no job and has fun there and has another boyfriend. It just constantly feels like im doing the right thing but being punished for it. I dont want to be so envious or sound ungrateful but things feel so difficult