Just feeling awful about my incompetence after wasting so many years of my life doing nothing with no real excuse outside of the ones everyone else has. Have nothing going for me that would even make me anywhere near respectable or interesting and feel like it's only a matter of time before friends and other people realize that. Makes me feel pressure to do something impressive or worthwhile, but I'm so bad at everything and not willing enough to do the work that it's driving me insane. Whatever creative projects I've started never go anywhere and were awful cringe ideas by default anyways, the idea of releasing something embarrassingly bad that causes people to think less of me just making my heart sink. The amount of work and skill required to make anything respectable is so far away for someone like me who feels miles behind the starting line of competence and I can hardly even bring myself to do even minimal amounts of work. Hate feeling this same way with each passing year...