everything was going fine lately, but recently it got pretty difficult to keep up I was able to get rid of most of my addictions, but now I'm still demotivated to do things such as studying, so I feel kinda awful especially because things are building up for me unfortunately, ever since I was a kid I've had pretty bad trauma with people arguing harshly and raising their voices frequently, right now I'm getting at a big age and the people close to me have been really shouting at each other and it's been making me feel really awful because I can't stop thinking of what happened to me. additionally, something pretty amazing happened to me this Sunday/Monday but i basically cant celebrate because nobody I know cares enough about it, so it made me kinda sad again