i miss her. i miss seeing her smile, her beautiful dark brown hair, her laugh, her eyes; i miss spending time with her and talking with her. i miss the notifications from her every day. now whenever i feel a vibration, i open my phone thinking its her, but its not. its been more than a month since we split, but it feels so much longer than that. i didn't get close with her with the intention of falling in love with her, i was set on just being friends. but, after like 3 months, she was so amazing that how could i not? she was beautiful, and had this sweet, special personality i hadn't met before. she was one of a kind to me, and i wanted to be committed to her. she...didn't want that. she had feelings, yes, but didn't want a relationship yet. i was okay with waiting until she was better, i wanted to support her however i could. but along the way, her feelings faded. she lost interest and stopped talking, and started ghosting. it was as if it was all for nothing; like i was nothing.