Im not okay. Im planning to commit tonight after my abusive parents caught me lying over eating my lunch, and are escalating it. My Note: It's all your fault. You are the reason I did this. Do you know how much it hurts to not be heard, to be constantly reprimanded, to be shoved down like a piece of worthlessness? Do you know how much it hurts to not be able to tell you anything at all. Do you know how much it hurts to live in constant fear and anxiety and absolute stress? To live carefully planning every next move. I know you love me. But I don’t care. I wish you didn’t. Your words hit harder than your fists. Every single day. My dreams were ignored. You wanted me to be like you. You wanted me to be perfect. I TRIED SO HARD. Good grades, good life, good friends. Sports, extracurriculars, volunteer hours. Aced almost every test. Was kind, caring, respectful Never put others down (unlike you) BUT IT WAS NEVER EVER ENOUGH. MY MISTAKES WAS TOO MUCH. I WAS ALWAYS TOO MUCH OR NOT ENOUG