Ive been working out for 4 years and im disabled. id at least think im in good shape but when i look in the mirror i still can see my ribs poking out my body, and little to no muscle mass added on. The people around me who have been lifting for less time look better and are stronger than me and i dont know how. i eat right, i drink right, i sleep well. What makes it worse is ive been bullied all my life about my weight and disability so much i have grown a big body dismorphia. on 1 hand im bullied for being skinny, on the other im being called fat and i dont know how. These feelings make me want to hurt people around me so i lock myself in my room most of the day and i cry to sleep knowing i cant change. What's worse is having to act all ok when someone laughs at the amount of food you say you eat or when they name call or try hurting me. I'll probably be dead before 17 and i know ill be happy i dont have to wake up the next day to the same bs. Either that or its roids and heart failr