I miss my friends from secondary school, i was told to go to a different college that i barley passed to get to so i can get a better future but the people around me are the same smart asses from secondary school that would bully me for how dumb i was. whats worse is I have to be their 'friends' whilst they act like they didn't bully me the year before. my real friends were as dumb as me and i actually enjoyed their company but now im stuck. and the work is so much harder, i can't keep up with schedules and my teachers call me out as dumb when i ask a question or 'its so easy, how do you not know this.' and don't tell me anything more. Im so tired and im too much of a pussy to cut my wrists or choke myself with a rope because i cant handle the pain.