I think I'm falling in love. I'll be honest, usually, I'm talking to more than one person at once. My brain always likes to have a plan and a back up plan. It's not right but at least I'm honest. But with this guy it's different. I keep waiting for him to do something stupid or do something that says see I'm right. But we're almost at a month of talking and he makes me smile at my phone all the time. I mean maybe he'll do something this week that gives me the ick right? ugh. It's just i've been hurt so much but he has planned a trip already and is totally okay with my son and doesn't want more kids. How can I not like him? I felt something i've never felt yet, the fear of losing him, with my ex/ son's father it was just kinda like okay I'll be fine. but him.... it feels like i can't stop thinking about him, like I only want him, like I want to build something good together and be together. Like I actually would get married to him and the thought of marriage fucking terrifies me. huffff