I'm part of the volunteer club thing and I help run things like the clubs been round for close to a century so I'm just a small part of it's history but whenever I jump onto the chats we've got and see all the people talking I just feel so like happy like really really happy and I feel like saying that anywhere else makes it sound really stupid and weird but like the people are really cool and I just want to be in the group for like ever and stay with them like some people aren't the greatest but its just sitting with the group talking I love them all so much in a way I haven't felt ever and the likelihood is if we weren't in this group we wouldn't have met and we'll probably not talk once we leave the group but for now they make my day so much better than I could ever imagine and I wish I could tell that to the group but I don't want to make it weird.